Pagan Majik~

~So many things always turn out to be truly different from what you believe them to be. For example,the more I look through my journals and dream records I realize how black my white family behaved considering how racist they were, how actually Christianity as most people worship and practice it is completely pagan, how completely accepting  I am of all religions, cultures and races while realizing everything I've learned through self studies and in practice I could easily be a pagan high priestess of moon based cultures (or quite possibly my own self ratified religion).
~I really like this idea, especially since the wiccan religion has more than kept my attention for the better part of the last decade, and apparently according to most texts I've read, I am a full fledged pagan to the core. I don't know if it's because of how against my parents religion of feminism and female oppression( seriously they didn't want me to go to school or have a job because they believed I should stay home to train to be a future house wife, never allowed to move out until I was married to a man appointed to me by my parents),  or simply because by design I was made to be fundamentally pagan. Will I ever really know? Probably not, but I guess it's whichever I choose for myself. And I am quite enjoying my new found ability to choose what I want that I have obtained in this past year (honestly It's horrible to have people choose for you everything they think is in your own self interest without once consulting with you would really like to see happen , or what you feel might be in your own best interest).

~It quite helps to have a pagan friend who makes you think about things. Especially when the thinking makes you realize a lot about your own self.

Sometimes you are much different than you have been told to believe and maybe different just because you've never paid attention to yourself. Which strangely, many people view even their own reflections in a mirror in a different light than what they really are. They act different than they would normally if they were to let themselves act as though there would be no consequences--shame really, because most people end up acting like stereotypes all because they fear judgement from people who won't even be in their life more than a couple of year at most. People who have no bearing on their life. I did that a long time...lost 15 years of my life trying to impress people that are now no longer anywhere near a part of my life. Trying to impress others is not worth it. Letting others control your life isn't worth it. Live your life-- Live it freely. Live without outside bindings and chains. Be, frank, be fun, Free.

--The Empress!~